Saturday, April 18, 2009
At 9am sharp
My phone alarm went off
The music just blaring away into my ears
had no other choice but to get up and wash up
It has been a week
ever since that day
where I stupidly risk my relationship just to confess to her
And now I am left with a cliff hanger response
I started to playback the incident in my head
Just as the words starts to come out from her mouth
Something unthinkable happened
Another lift arrived and the door opened
Before I could even snap myself out of the intense atmosphere, she dashed straight into the lift and up it went
There I was standing like an idiot staring into the blank space
And back to earth I am staring at myself in the mirror....
Who am I trying to kid? Me and her going out together?
It is just plain impossible
And I have just destroyed our friendship
Just like that in a snap...
Ever since that, we did not talk at all...
Though I did see her online in msn, we are like total strangers not talking to each other at all...
Around 2pm, Sheng Yi sent me a message stating that he wants to meet me at Kovan 4.30pm
So I left the house at 4pm and amazingly, I wasn't late. Instead he was late so I just head over to KFC and waited for him there
Just then, I saw her walking into KFC
I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me so I took off my specs and started rubbing my eyes
No...it really is her
Judging from her expression, seems that she was just as shocked to see me there. Then I received a call from Sheng Yi saying that he ain't coming and told me to make the best of chance to sort it all out with her. I started cursing and swearing over the phone...but at the same time in my heart, I thanked him.
We just sat down and did not say a single word.
"Hey...let's go home" was all she said after like 20 mins of silence
I agreed with her and accompanied her home
There again...
We are at the exact same scene of where it took place 1 week ago...
only that now it is 5.47pm instead
The situation is rather awkward as I just stared at her...slowly shifting my eyes from her face to the ground...
"Well, you're home now. So...I will be making my way back yea? Bye..."
Despite saying these, my mind kept screaming NO! ASK HER! but my body just wouldn't listen to me...
"Hey..."
"Hmm? yea?" I turned around immediately
"About the answer to the confession...can you wait just a little bit more...?"
"......wha?..." I was struck dumbfounded
"I need to think it through it before I decide...it is something important to me" her eyes now looking at me directly.
I can't believe my ears
I wasn't rejected
But I wasn't accepted either...
As time passes...
I stand waiting for her answer
that light of hope shining in my heart
.::.my endless pain & sorrow.::.
::9:44 PM
